follow the sound

follow the sound in my head. i wrote that the 2nd night after i moved out of my house. there's a song that accompanies it. and it's good too. one of my best. you'll never hear it. not the original. it's raw. ugh.
'cheer up, honey i hope you can/there is something wrong with me'.
jeff tweedy wrote that. i really love it. it's vague. y'know? it's open to interpretation. and i love that. i love how music lets you place your own shit on top of it. i love how music let YOU direct it. and how IT directs you. it keeps you from floating away. it keeps you from feeling so alone.
i love people. it's true. some of my favorite people are people. and you, dear readers, are my favorite people. i know all 5 of you, ( i may be overestimating my popularity) and you are swell folks. but i think of you all in musical terms. some gbv, some beat happening, some costello, some bad religion, some springsteen, etc. etc. etc.
and it's a gift, and a curse. to paraphrase monk. yeah, i love monk. i'm nearly monk.
i don't even know what i'm writing about anymore. something about...
music. jesus. i could do without anything but.
i've lost alot. i guess. no more than any of you, i know but...
i try not to live in the past.
i break it down with music.
'amrican pie'
'built for speed'
'declaration'
'born in the u.s.a.'
'too tough to die'
'pleased to meet me'. shit. the replacements. you can not understand the importance of me discovering the replacements. where had we been all our lives?
'blood and chocolate'
'sebadoh 3'
'there's nothing wrong with love'
'the nashville sessions'. that's townes van zandt. purchased in new paltz, ny.
'pet sounds'. sigh. pet sounds. i'll never, ever get over you, 'pet sounds'.
and who knows what's to come? it's kinda exciting!
i mean, i hate life, but i love music! and that's what keeps me going!
and i've discovered new bands lately! ones that invigorate me! crooked fingers! the hold steady! uncle tupelo! ( yeah, i know, they're old but i just got into them. sue me.)
so, you know, there's stuff to live for.
there's music to live for.
the music i imagine in my head.
someday i'll hear it.
follow the sound in my head.